I met a fabulous fellow children's book author for lunch yesterday and it was so great to connect with someone who is experiencing some of the same challenges that I am. It helps to realize that we all face various obstacles in our writing process. It made me want to examine my obstacles a little more closely.
For starters, I've been kind of amazed by the number of ways and excuses I've found to avoid actually writing since I made the big move out of my corporate job to working for myself. One would think that working from home and having a lot more time in the day to devote to writing would result in a huge bump in creativity and productivity. Well, one would be wrong (at least in my case)! In fact, I realized that on average, I probably got more productive writing done when I had a full time office job than I have been doing lately! There's always a reason to walk the dog or play with the dog or do anything dog-related. There's always something in the apartment that should be cleaner than it is, or laundry that needs to be done, or dishes that need to be unloaded from the dishwasher. There's always other work or email or Twitter or Facebook to focus on instead.
I really started thinking about why this procrastination takes over and the only real answer I can find is that I'm standing in my own way. That little gremlin of self-doubt that sits on my shoulder and tells me that I'm not a very good writer anyway, or that no one is interested in what I have to say, sometimes gets off my shoulder and stands tall in front of me - completely blocking my path. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies - bullies to our inner selves. If we just stayed out of our own way instead of blocking the path (mentally, creatively, and sometimes even physically by doing everything but sitting down to write) then we would get a lot more writing done. And that doesn't mean that all of it is good writing. But actually having something on the page to react to is a lot easier than staring at a blank screen wondering what would happen if you did write something.
I feel reenergized by my chat yesterday and ready to set new goals for myself. And that's something else I realized during our conversation - just being held accountable by someone - even over IM, email, or Twitter - makes a difference in the level of necessity to get those words out. So, let's hope I can stay out of my own way or at least begin to recognize when I start to block the path.
I'd love to hear how other writers, artists, and anyone who works at creating something original kick their gremlins to the curb!